my insight of the day

Today as I was talking with a friend who is a father, and a pretty good one I think, I was trying to explain to him how being a Grandmother is different from being a Mother. As I struggled to find words it became clear to me. When I saw my granddaughter for the first time, my heart was filled. I told him that she had filled my heart, and everything that was bad and didn't belong there went away, because there was no room for it anymore. There are things from my past that I can look back on and be upset or depressed about, but Kahlan is here and she is healthy and happy. What does anything that happened last year, or ten years ago or longer matter anymore? It doesn't. Her little tiny self has pushed out all the negativity in my life. When she looks at me, I forget anything that has happened before. She pulls me into 'now'. You have to be present with an infant- all the time. You can't dwell on things that aren't important, because there simply isn't time. Everything in her world is new. I look forward so much to watching her discover things, and rediscovering those things myself. My deepest and most sincere hope is that nothing ever hurts her so deeply that she loses the overwhelming love of life that she seems to have now. She is still so young and fragile, but she has changed me, and i am so thankful for her and her Mommy. What a blessing to our family she is.