We have landed square into 2011. It seems time is moving faster to me. There have been days in my life that I felt would never end, and now- an entire year has just blown by. It was a very tough year, but it still seemed to move too fast for me at times.
For instance, my Granddaughter will be 6 months old this week. Yes, half a year old already!! Augh!
My hubby received tenure this year, and it seems as if we just got here a week ago!! (that's a good thing- better than the other way around!!)
Reflecting on the previous year is typical for me when the new one rolls around, and since I had a few days on my own in our Kansas home, I spent some time in thought.
Ultimately, I am very happy with my life and where I am right now. I can say that about the rest of the family as well. That hasn't always been the case! That's not to say that everything is just perfect, but-it feels as if it's on the right track. There are certainly still concerns with my Mother, and the economy and job market is pretty frightening. It's difficult to explain, but I think it's an internal settling. Like, I feel balanced, and prepared for the future.
Watching my daughter with her baby girl reminds me of when she was a baby, and how some days just seemed to be an endless array of messes. I remember thinking to myself back then, that I really needed to enjoy her babyhood, because I knew it would go by quickly, and each little developmental milestone would come and go so quickly, but when you are in the midst of the diapers and the night feedings and the laundry, etc. it's pretty hard to soak it all in. I am so thankful that my daughter seems to be able to sit back and enjoy her daughter. I know that I'm really mistaken when I think that Kahlan is the most perfect, most beautiful baby in the world. I know that other Grandmas would disagree with my assessment. To me, she is those things and many more. She is also a confirmation that we will continue. My Dad is gone and that is very tough sometimes, but I took a picture of Kahlan at Christmas time, and she has that twinkle in her eye, and I couldn't help but think- there it is. There we are.
We are heading into 2011, and so many changes for everyone I'm sure. I hope that this year will be a positive one for everyone. I choose to believe that it will.
